good morning - 2024
This was my first steps into working with 3D animation in Blender and was the start of some of my ideas for the UwU Gallery.
While fairly simple in its execution, I wanted to create a sort of visceral dread that manifested itself in the constraints of the idea of 3D animation itself. Some sort of strange, indescribable terror that only appears in the uncanny nature of stripped down, barren and plasticky forms, looping and panning for an omniscient camera. A camera that cuts through the borders of reality itself.
Lemon Demon Captures You and Your Two Friends and Interrogates You on Internet Cringe Culture. - 2023
I’ve had this desire to connect with cliques that I’ve never really experienced beforehand – a sort of secondhand nostalgia. I want my audience to envelop themselves in this “cringe” dilemma. To re-experience what they remembered, or to touch into the ideas of cringe culture if they’ve never experienced it. Neil Cicierega is a big inspiration for me – he’s had his hands in so much of the internet potluck, so much creativity and ideas ooze from him, yet his attitude towards those ideas is what really inspired me. To him, he embraces his weird upbringing, his weird and cringe explorations of his own creativity as a child, and he embraces his nostalgia for those weird ideas. To him, and to me, we should never forget these feelings or ideas of where we come from. Of what made us happy, secure, and feel like a part of a group when we were children.
I rarely got those chances as a child, and through all the noise of crazy, cringe humor and toxicity towards fandom and expressions of self during childhood I still yearned to be a part of those fandoms. And I hope others realize that it’s okay to be cringe.
STOOD A CHANCE (FMV) - 2023
Given the task of appropriating archival footage and manipulating it to fit a specific song (in this case, STOOD A CHANCE by the musician Zalinki) and narrative of my choice, this project was a push towards experimenting with Premiere Pro further than I had in my past experiences.
In it, I wanted to push the meta-narrative of ephemerality and ego that Zalinki's songs invoke, especially with their nature of vanishing without a trace. It was a chance to craft something nostalgic, but not through footage I could completely control - instead relying almost solely on editing techniques.
Performance Piece (CONTENT WARNING, ACCIDENTAL SELF HARM @ 11:30) - 2020
One single, long performance piece, structured in a way close to stream-of-consciousness. In it, I destroy what I once held dear as a child. Drawings, writings, and even my corporeal body.
I still deeply regret this performance - I'd never taken any photographs or documentations of what I destroyed, and afterwards they dissolved into the trash bin. The performance, looking back, has left a mark on my memories of the past, and what I loved.
Fitting, then, that the performance had left a physical scar on my hand. My emotions were heightened too much to even understand what had happened in that moment.
